Hello, i(19f) have social anxiety and sometimes this causes me to either try to not exist or overdo the existence but it also causes me to overthink. I dont have any in real life friends, ive never met anyone i can be close to since middle school. And with my severe social anxiety all ive had for the past 4 years was a second account on instagram. Its been my fallback as i dont have any friends and dont want to feel completely supportless by everybody. Its got 20 people on there, some from school, some from travelling, just people i generally liked but obviously can never have a real friendship with. Theres also a girl i like on there. But my posts… i feel like such a dweeb. I will be happy vibing and want to post and ill just send it! But once that vibe stops i immediately want to delete and all i think about is how everyones seen that now and i should just delete my account so no one ever has to see me again. No ones ever complained… but i am insecure. Its social media, the place for all things insecurity i know. But i feel embarrassed for posting constantly, do all my “friends” think im not normal and a desperate weirdo? Theyre all chill and dont do that, and i here i am bored with nothing to do over posting. I think after i type this im just going to make sure no one can view my story as thatll help and people wont have to be subjected to me. I mean i dont even talk to them beyond instagram why would they even want to see what im doing and how im feeling. And i went through a phase of not using it all for a couple years, and now i have ten cat photos a day. Its really embarrassing. But i live alone, i have no one to talk to, im just by myself:(