Lonely women, what is your emotional experience like? What are your life struggles, and how are you doing?

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1. The best way I can describe my emotional experience is that it constantly feels either “heavy” or “empty.”

   And if I had to boil it all down to something simple, my life struggles are basically me having pretty extreme insecurities and self-hatred towards myself and my existence, and I have a very difficult time trying to change this toxic belief system. I hope to one day though so that I can finally become a good, worthy person to myself and those around me. But if I had to name one thing I’m struggling with right now, it’d be getting myself a job so that I can pay bills.

   Lastly, tbh..I don’t know how I’m doing..everything feels awful inside..but in reality, I’m not in too horrible of a place..so maybe I’m doing okay.

2. I’ve chosen it myself, because under the circumstances, it’s what causes the least amount of hurt to both me and others, so it is what it is.

   Still, it is a constant struggle, especially as I’m a person who recharges my energy from being around people or talking away for hours. And on a deeper plan, it hurts knowing that I never can have true, lasting connections. While I’ve never been the type to want emotional intimacy and openness, I still mourn that I’ll never be able to share even the good and happy things with anyone else.

   But I’m used to it. I struggle heavily in life and withj myself, but being on my own didn’t cause it, it’s just another consequence of it. So after all, it’s alright. If I magically could get my ideal life, my social life would be one of the last things I’d fix.

3. It’s quite turbulent for me. It’s hard to do utterly everything by yourself, and it certainly weighs on me a lot as I feel like I’m constantly fighting just to keep my head above water – especially when shit hits the fan like it is now.

   I feel like my life struggle at the moment is struggling with the fact that I don’t feel worthy enough of love, or like I will ever truly be wanted romantically. I’ve only had one person in my life really get me and who I loved with my whole heart and soul, but they aren’t in it anymore and it ended quite painfully for me. I struggle to see how I will heal from this or ever feel like I am truly and utterly wanted and loved.

   Right now life is quite shitty for me – personal life and work life are in flames and I don’t really have anything to hold on to anymore. I’m drowning essentially.

4. No emotions mostly at all. Just wake up-work-sleep. I just wish I could sleep more, that`s all. And no, I don`t want to go out ALONE, and make new friends. I`m kinda introverted.