I 23f have friends and a boyfriend, but for whatever reason whenever there’s a group of people that forms I tend to distance myself and avoid it. I’ve been apart of friend groups in the past and they haven’t worked. And when I was in high school I was made fun of and picked on by mean girls. Ever since then I just feel uncomfortable in groups of friends.
So now in class or at work I avoid spending time in the friend groups that form. I just get really anxious and feel judged. And I expect to be left out, made fun of, or straight up abandoned.
Everyone tells me I’m normal, I’m a good person, have a fun personality, etc. but I just get so apprehensive whenever a friend group forms. I want to connect but I feel like I can’t.