Should I meet the guy who dumped me ?

So , I was deeply in love with a guy who dumped me after three months telling me he only had lust and a protective reflex for me . He was the only guy I ever dated and fell in love with . I had no prior experience to it and fell hard for him . He was still in love with his ex which he told me later indirectly . But even though he dumped me after three months , he was being hot and cold with me . Kept texting me and flirting with me . We met and had oral sex too . He was very on and off with me for a period of 3 months after he dumped me during which we flirted and texted a lot .
But after those three months he told me I wasn’t fit for him and he never had any romantic feelings for me and that I should move on . It absolutely broke my heart . But once day he starts flirting again and asks me to meet to have oral sex . He promises we’ll meet but we don’t meet . He says couldn’t meet the first time so he’ll meet again . But this time I got emotional and reacted because he didn’t meet me . I acted kinda clingy and immature and was forcing him to meet me . During that time he confessed to me that he met his ex and thinks he wants her to be his lifelong partner . And I got emotional at that and overreacted and felt sad .
Later he gets mad and says we’ll not meet . After that I block him for a month since I was getting suicidal and got better in the month I kept my distance from him . After a month I unblocked him and we start texting again . This time he doesn’t talk anything sexual and we talk as normal friends but one day I get mad at him and fight with him because when I told I got better mentally he replied saying stop boasting or showing off that you got better . But later he apologized but I couldn’t take it and block him everywhere . Later , again I unblock him , and he calls me out on not being able to hold on to my commitments . So later, he asks for a period of 75 days break because he wants to prepare for his exams . We don’t text at all during that time . I got him a birthday gift and after his exam is done he texted asking about my well being and says he would like to meet me . I’m scared he’ll do the same thing like did before : asking me to meet but not meeting me .
I don’t want to meet him . I’ve been really hurt and I don’t want to meet him . Is not meeting him the right thing or am I being immature by not meeting him ?
While we were kinda , sorta dating too : I was immature and he was kinda emotionally distant . Initially there was a lot of love bombing and later he dumped me all of a sudden . We have an age gap of 6yrs . He dated multiple girls but he was the only guy I ever dated . Also , we weren’t exclusive which was clear . And the dating too , we never met while we were dating , it was only texting and calling . We only met after he dumped me . So what am I supposed to do now ? Be the bigger person and forgive and meet him ( chances that he won’t meet and do the same are there too ) or give into my feelings and not meet him ?
Im at an impasse and don’t know what to do . I want to do the mature , right thing but can’t figure out what that is since im more emotional and can’t think logically about such issues .