From the beginning i feel the obligation to explain that English is not my first language, i apologize in advance for any mistakes or misspellings.
We moved from Brazil to Florida a year ago, we struggle a lot moneywise but for the fist time now we are feeling a little more stable, we both have stable jobs and a place to live comfortably. However the fights are getting each time more intense, the last one (yesterday) i had my stuff packed to leave (with nowhere to go but still…).
I love her very much and honestly i cannot see my life without her, but lately the jealousy and the need to be always in control of absolutely EVERYTHING is getting into my nerves, i don’t know how much longer i can take this.
It all started when we decide to keep our finances together since we are practically living a married life, but after some time it turns out that i have no say in anything when i comes to finances and she always make sure to attack me in a personal level every time i insist on buying something or maybe moving to another place, since we rent a room not a full apartment, if any of you had the experience of renting a single room you know how i can get nerve wrecking pretty soon.
I dont know if im being selfish or not, but i should have a say on whats happening to what is essentially OUR money, not hers. Another fact is that i earn significantly more than her, it was never a problem and i dont think less of her when i say this, but at the same time how come i can have no say on it?
TLDR – Im worried that if we separate she wont be able to take care of herself by herself, but i dont want to be the guys whos helping her while shes dationg other dudes, and trust me, its not going to take long for it to happen, she is a golden girl and anyone that can see it would try to get involved with her.
I dont know if im making any sense, im writing this in great distress and im feeling super lost now, we both dont have any family or close people that we can rely on since we’ve been here for only a short time.
ANY, ANY advise is welcome, i for sure cannot think straight right now. Honestly im lost…