I am M23. At 19 I moved out to start studying with my GF. Our relationship has been fine, but since I moved 1000km from home I never have hitted a real friend again. Most of my friends were childhood friends, I used to have freedom to just call them and go to a bar, hang-out with them, go MTB and etc. I kinda of feel lonely know, it has been like this for 4 years but got worse after I moved out of the first city. Now I dont even have company to study with (currently at my Master course). Also my old friends aren’t the same anymore, some of them moved out, others are drug addicts, etc. It also hurts that my cousin/clousest friends is also moving out for good and dosen’t seem to care about me. Despite my efforst to still do things from time to time (playing games online or hangout when I am at my hometown).
It kinda of hurts to look around and apart from my educational progress I just feel stuck. I also feel sad for my friends that have hit rock bottom, I have tried to help but they never listen and even turned agressive against me. The few that I still talk from those old times, I am always the one reaching out which lefts me thinking if they even care at all?
I guess I sometimes feel avoid inside me, and then I try to hang out with people to forget about it. I know that there are people that don’t need friends (my closest friend seems to be like that), but I guess that I do.