I had severe social anxiety when i was a freshman in hs so i didn’t socialize with anyone mostly,i was acting like an outcast and quiet girl which i deeply regret now.Some classmates were friendly towards me and they did talk to me even if i was happy about that ,because of my anxiety i was pretty nervous when talking to them so i looked cold and weird from outside.Anyways there was this boy also trying to be friendly towards me i guess,one day he came to me and gave me a manga called ‘Silent Voice ‘ which the main character girl is deaf and can’t talk and developing a romance with her former classmate.So it is a romantic book and i thought he was trying to mean something but at the same time i am not sure because other day he asked me to give it back if i read it, i mean it is normal but him asking the next day without waiting seemed weird to me.And after that we didn’t talk much so there is nothing i guess .I am gonna sound very weird and dumb because i am but it has been almost 5 years after this incident but i still sometimes think about him. It sounds obsessive right but please don’t judge me and even if i contact with him after 5 fucking years probably i am not gonna get the the answer i want. So what do you think did he really try to say something to me with the manga or it was nothing and should i really write to him? I would be happy if you help me,thank you for reading and sorry if there is any grammar mistakes .Btw we are not even in the same college or city now so does that make it weirder?
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Good idea to write him just to catch up, if you have something nice to say. Otherwise, it’d be a good idea to work to move on from this.
The more experiences you have, the less meaning this one will have. Anxiety is serious business however, it can get reduced with therapy if you’re not already doing that