Boyfriend wants to masturbate together every time

Hello,

My boyfriend (20M) and I (23F) are in a long-distance relationship. This is my first relationship ever btw. He is the sweetest guy ever and we never get into arguments. However, lately, both of us have been somehow frustrated with the sexual part of our relationship.

I would say that our sexual drives differ quite a bit. My libido is on the lower side – I’m on anti-depressants and I’m stressed due stuff that’s going on in my life and tired as I work full-time. As a result, it’s difficult for me to “get in the mood”.

On the other hand, his libido is way higher than mine. He often initiates dirty conversations and wants us to masturbate together while we sext. The issue is, we can never get the timing quite right. We usually start sexting when I’m in bed already, preparing to go to sleep and too exhausted to start masturbating. Or, I’m too anxious to do so as I live with 3 other people and I can hear them chatting outside of my room at times. My door’s lock is broken so I’m constantly anxious that someone’s gonna barge into my room while I’m doing the dirty. Yes, I do get turned on during these conversations, but it’s just not necessary for me to get off. I started masturbating when I was around 20, I’m still not really used to it, so I can just go and continue existing without it. But I feel bad for him because he gets really horny, and I’m worried that I can’t satisfy him properly.

Of course, I do masturbate at times – perhaps once or twice per week. For instance, last week I got super horny and masturbated 3 times in a span of one day (this happens once in a blue moon). It was really spontaneous and happened after I woke up. I told my boyfriend and he got a bit frustrated because I’m never in the mood when he wants to do it. He suggested that I let him know every time I’m in the mood so that we can do it together, but I don’t know… Horniness comes randomly to me. Sometimes I’m horny when he’s sleeping or busy doing something else. Am I supposed to wait for him? What if I wanna do it alone? I like to hump my pillow at times and it’s difficult to do so while texting. He suggested to call while I hump my pillow and do it this way, but as I mentioned before, I live with multiple people and the walls here are quite thin. Should I just not tell him that I masturbated without him? I really don’t know… Is he in the right to be “mad” that I masturbate without him?

If anyone could give me their insight, opinion, advice, anything – it would be much appreciated.

Thanks!

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