While in school there were various times where I had absolutely zero friends and times where I had a few. I’ve always struggled to make friends and had 1 close friend throughout highschool but then our friendship fell apart and we don’t talk anymore. In highschool I made myself feel and act like an outcast. Probably because I was shy and couldn’t make friends as easily as other people. I would constantly judge other people for what they would say and always felt that most people were “cringe.”
Whenever there was something that everyone was watching or a new game people played I thought I was better than them for not watching either or. Whenever new slang pops up I don’t say it because I feel cringe for using it even though it makes me laugh when other people say it. I feel like people always say the dumbest things ever but again it makes me laugh. But people can always say these jokes in a clever way that I can’t. Am I just too serious or sensitive? I’ve been told that by a few of my family members. But at the same time I don’t feel like I’m too serious I’m just there yk? I’m not sure how to explain it well. Maybe it’s because I feel numb in a way? I don’t really care about most things. How can I change? I feel like I don’t fit in anywhere. I just want to be better at conversations.