Recently ive been speaking to this girl who went to school with me for the first time since uni started ( so 3 years). and shes kept in touch with a few people from school and 2 of the people she asked ab me initially didnt remember who i was.
granted i never spoke to those 2 but it got me thinking people usually don’t remember me or have anything memorable to say about me. and idk what it is tbh.
back in high school i was very reserved and had self esteem issues which made me think rveryone hated me (my biggest regret is not making the most of those years). cuz of this i used to hope that noone remembers how quiet and awkward i was. but now that schools over (first of all i obvs wish i wasnt so quiet qnd reserved) but i also do wish people remembered me
its so embarassing cuz since i stopped smoking weed my memory’s been getting better and now i actually remember peoples names and faces. atleast back when i used to smoke i had the justifation of “lol i don’t remember u either”
and obviously i know i wont ever see alot of those people from school again but idk now i feel like im doing the same here in uni and them in the future with work aswell i just feel like im not memorable or important in anyones life and idk why not. like people do like me and wanna hang out with me and see me and shit but theres always someone else theyll prefer over me.
maybe i just make good firsy impressions but dont know how to get past that shallow level of friendship to a deeper level with people
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Remember what they say. Talk about it later with them. Listen closely. Stay calm. Don;t stand too close or far from them. Make sure to take good care of yourself. People unfortiunately judge appearnaces.