I’ve always been awkward, nervous, unable to interpret signals, and all around incompetent at romance. I always figured “oh I’ll meet someone/it’ll happen I’m just a late bloomer”. Now I’m 33 and I’ve never had a successful date or a single relationship in my entire life. I’ve read books, tried dating sites, none of it worked. I kind of just stopped trying years ago because it hurt too much getting my hopes up and then having them destroyed. I feel broken, like theres something wrong with me or that I don’t understand. I don’t even know how to approach a woman anymore, and I don’t think I ever did. I’m as clueless and incompetent as I was 20 years ago.
I just want to know what is wrong with me. There has to be something wrong with me. I don’t know a single person who has a less existent/more patheric love life than mine, and I know some real pieces of work. Nobody has ever been attracted to me or demonstrated interest other than one or two times in college, and I screwed those up. Now that my friends are getting married and settling down, I just feel even more lonely and inadequate. Each year I feel like more and more of a failure. I try not to think about it, but sometimes it just gets so lonely. I’m scared of being alone like this forever.