We are together for 2 years now .
But when we came together, she already had sex with a lot of different guys who always dominated or “used” her and I was still a virgin until she took my virginity. This fact alone turnt me on a lot and made me submissive to her but also led to her being the Dom one in the first time of our rs, because she taught me everything about sex . After some time we spoke about our kinks and I told her that being dominated by her , when she humiliates me or feelings like jealousy turn me on a lot . That’s why she told me Very detailed, that being dominated or humiliated by “daddy” kind of guys is her biggest kink to and how she lived out and enjoyed that kink before me with other guys but also very crazy story’s about what they did to her .
The time after that , she trained me into being more and more dominant while fucking her and it worked very well to the point where she loves the sex , but it just workes that good because I always think about the fact and get turned on that she mades me do this for her pleasure and also the thought that she led all those other guys do those things to her who really wanted it for themselves and how she want me to fuck her like them turns me on a lot and makes me so jealous that I can be harder to her . So really being the dominant is not what I am and she also knows that very well , so she is the real dominant in our relationship except for the times she want me to act dom.
So I have the fear that she Isn’t completely satisfied by my acted domination and craves a real situation with a “real” older men bc of her daddy kink and doesn’t feel the same with me bc I’m more that “pretty boy” kind of men which she also calls me often . So at the end we have good sex but it’s not really what we both need , which I know because the very freaky things she wants I just can’t do to her . When I offered her to have Sex with another men that is really dom and older , so she can get dominated by him and I by her and which also would fit with the fact that jealousy turns me on , she said she doesn’t wants it and that it would feel wrong to her . Which I don’t understand because she likes the attention from other men and to make me jealous by flirting with them . Maybe it’s because there isn’t someone right now she knows, that is even more of her type than me . But I have the fear that she would cheat in a moment where she meets someone like that , what would break my heart bc it would only turn me on if it’s OUR thing and not smt she hides from me . Also she starts to wanting less sex even when she says she was horny all week which also makes me worry . So how can two sub pp fit in a rs? What can I do to make both of us get what we want ? And are there any women who can explain it out of my gf’s perspective?