I have this really bad habit of fixating on men as an avoidance mechanism. Have so much school work, shadow work, new hobbies and myself to focus on but obsessing over a person just feels easier to do.

I’ll have so much to do, so much to work on but instead I’m laying here fantasising over a very hot but mid man.

Am I addicted to male validation? Is men the only thing I’m somewhat good at? Eew throwing up as I type that.

A part of me feels like it’s a form of self harm. I get very addicted to the easiness that comes with being reckless and saying no to what I should say no to (but that’s another chat).

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  1. You’re not the only one, men as well as women’s have fantasies about either gender, it’s hormones and it’s okay, you just have to regulate it with time.

    Still have the urge to just go ask any girl there is in my school because of me being lonely and daydreaming of a hug, but thanks to the gym I control my urge with spending it over exercises and study.

    Be carful tho, I heard that female body will have an increased libido or some sort because of exercises, so I recommend searching in google if it is true or not, if yes, find something productive and instill discipline on it and focus enough to forget them.

    Good luck!

  2. lol yea I get hyper fixated on ppl too, like I was talking to someone on discord and she has a nice voice and I’m literally obsessed even tho I gotta go get a job, and like we haven’t even met yet sooooo uh whoops

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