I guess above all I’m just scared of change. My friend group that I was apart of for years doesn’t hang out anymore. I left for the army for a few years and thought when I got back I’d be able to pick up where I left off. When I got back I found out that a huge fight happened with two of them, and that really drove a wedge. That caused a lot of negativity in the group, and the flame just kinda… died. Half of them are married now, so they don’t have time/aren’t willing to hang out anymore. Some are in college, one is in jail. Everyone moved on from the group but me. I’m happy for the guys that made their life better but I still wish things could be like old times, meeting up every day, doing random stuff together, being a second family. We often compared our group to the friend group from how I met your mother cause of how close we were, but we all moved on. I talked to one of my really close friends that was a part of it, that I’m still friends with, and he shares my feelings, but I feel like he’s not as passionate about it as I am. When I start hanging out with new people, I get anxiety about moving on myself. I know there’s nothing in my old friend group anymore, and I’m just holding on to hope for something that won’t be, but it still makes me nervous. I want to move on but my emotions won’t let me.