So me and my boyfriend have been dating for 3 years. We met online and have been dating since then. Our sex life has always been very good until now. I have no complaints. Recently my boyfriend has wanted to experiment more, we’ve recently tried anal and other things like that. I was okay with trying this as I am the kind of person who is typically open to anything. I should also mention that we live together and have been ring shopping, so we are very serious. Two weeks ago I come home to a beautiful candle lit dinner and thought maybe he was going to propose. At dinner he said that we wanted to try something new in the bedroom. I was not fazed by this as I just assumed it would be something minor. As I go back into the bedroom he hands me a drink of water and tells me to drink it. As I sip the drink I notice it tastes a little like laxative but don’t think much of it as I notice the rose petals on our bed. He then lays on the bed and tells me he wants me to poop in his mouth. I was horrified by this, and said no. But he kept insisting and I honestly felt like I needed to poop. So eventually I agreed. But I now feel awkward in our relationship and I don’t know what to do.