I am studying abroad and my flatmate is a long time friend of mine. We live in a shared apartmentand there is also one other guy living here. My friend and I both do the same course and we knew each other for 9 years now. When we came here for our studies we didn’t have had much company other than each other. And now she has new friends in some other place, with whom she spends every weekends with and even holidays. I am basically alone all the time struggling to make new friends and spending every single weekends and holidays alone. We don’t talk to each other over weekends or even holidays like christmas or new year and it always feels like she doesn’t even care, unless she is back and doesn’t have any friends here other than me with whom she can talk to. But then on weekdays when she comes back she expects me to be nice to her and keep her company. And now I just don’t want to and pretty much doesn’t talk to her anymore and I subconsciously ignore her all the time and we spend all our times in our own rooms. there are days when I don’t even say a word out loud until some of my old friends or family calls me from home.
am i in the wrong for bot talking go her anymore and giving too much of my energy into this friendship bcos I don’t have any other friends here? It sometimes feels like I am blaming her when the real problem is me. It’s not that I don’t want to but I just can’t find anybody with whom I can talk to here. I live in Germany and language is a slight issue for me when trying to communicate with others. I am really struggling here.