I’m 32 and she’s 42, dating for 6 months. She has 2 kids w/ an ex husband. Never thought I could over dating a woman with kids that created life with someone else but I’ve accepted it for the most part. She’s in my cousins friends group and everyone loves the match. She likes being open about each others sexual pasts but these are convos I’ve NEVER been able to handle or talk about, they mess w/ my head big time. She says I’m only the 2nd man she’s said I love you to (was married a while). We have insane sexual chemistry that neither of us have ever felt before to any comparable level. We have sex about 10x/wk. After bringing it up on numerous occasions (I never wanted to discuss it) she said her body count is 11 and mine is 10 so that was relieving were the same. But there’s a few details tough for me to get past. Am I just in my head?
1. The majority of these 11 men have cummed inside her raw. Even ones she only dated for a couple months. I for example was FWBs with a woman for a couple years who begged me to have sex with her raw (let alone cumming inside) and I wouldn’t even do it bc I see that as something people in a serious relationship should do. I can’t get over how many men have done this to her as this is the ultimate sexual bond. She’s the first one I’ve done it with. She thinks it’s no big deal and a difference of preference.
2. I just found out last night that when she was 40 she dated a 26 y/o for 3 months and he got her pregnant but she took a pill to abort the baby at like 4 weeks. I hooked up with women of a similar age gap before but this one is especially hard to deal with mentally due to the circumstances.
3. She hooked up a few times with a guy in her (and my cousins) immediate friend group so I have to be around him all the time and see them talking.
tl;dr
-GF has had a more extensive sexual history than me
-Tough for me to accept
-Thinks I choose to feel this way and I’m an outlier
-Is this pretty normal