I tried everything. I’ve spent four years reframing my thoughts and ideology so I can let him go and be happy without him but nothing has worked! I still kind of wish he was here with me, despite the fact that I know he wants nothing to do with me. Has anyone else experienced just not getting better after a breakup? Like the pain never went away and the love never went away. Some context- I’ve become progressively chronically I’ll. I was at the start of our relationship and it’s why it ended. Thus I haven’t been able to properly date anyone else as I am too unwell and am housebound, only leaving the house to go to the hospital. I’ve kissed one other person. Had a sort of FWB situation in the summer of 2021, but I hated it and it didn’t end well because I can’t deal with casual hookups (I crave serious, established relationships.) My only relationship experience was when I was 16 with him and I am still very attached to him. I loved him deeply, and unfortunately still do. I’m aware he’s dated another girl apart from me, seemingly long- term but I don’t know.
TL;DR VERY LONG TIME AFTER BREAK UP, never got over my ex bf, extremely chronically ill, sort of reminiscing on my love with him because that was the last time I was able to be in a relationship and I crave companionship/ affection/ special attention