I’m 24 and I’ve been engaged to my fiancé (25yo) for 3 years now. The only reason we haven’t gotten married yet is because I want a really nice but small wedding and he wants a nice honeymoon, we just don’t have the money yet, which is fine. Not in a rush. We’ve been living together for 4 years so it feels like a marriage anyways. That’s what matters.
With that I want to clarify that we are extremely happy together, but sometimes I look at him and I look at myself in the mirror and I don’t feel pretty enough for him. Is that normal?
He even gets compliments from people when I’m with him or when he’s by himself.
We once went to a 7 eleven and the cashier said “you’re so handsome, wow” and he once told me that it also happens while he’s doing Lyft or Uber.
The other day we were at a family reunion and someone who was invited (not part of the family) said how cute he is.
Nobody ever mentions anything nice about me, but instead, they always tell me how I look “better” with long hair and how I’m overweight.
I’m 5’2 and 126lb.
He tells me I’m beautiful all the time, although he mentions here and there that I should exercise “for my own health”.
He’s very into sports and exercises a lot, he can eat whatever he wants and he’s still skinny but muscular at the same time, if that makes sense.
Sometimes I feel like I want to tell him to just go and get the blonde, skinny, pretty girl he deserves, but then I’m like wtf is wrong with me and why do I want to ruin everything for myself.
I would love to get a nose job and to lose weight, but I feel like I’ll never be a dream girl someone would wish to have.
I heard him tell his brother how amazing I am and that I’m always there for him and there’s nobody like me, but as a girl it breaks my heart that he’s probably in love with me for who I am but maybe he’s not attracted to me that much.
Has anybody felt this way?
Edit: sorry I got the ages wrong in the title lol