For Context I went to a local Super Smash Bros Tournament in an Arcade, and overall I’m mixed about how it went.
I’m 23 Male and struggle with meeting new people, as I haven’t really socialized in the past 5 years since Highschool, aside from a couple of times in my college gaming club.
Anyways, I feel like today was miserable. I didn’t know anyone there which was to be expected, but me approaching people and saying HI became sooooo awkward. And I was so nervous the whole time. What didn’t help my nerves was me being in bracket.
My first match I won, but then in the second one it came to my attention it would be livestreamed in twitch and throughout the arcade. I became so nervous to the point I was almost gonna have a panic attack.
And I was versing a well known professional in the game. I got absolutely destroyed and humiliated. I even heard people gasping and excited when he was destroying me from the other room.
After that I continued playing losers, lost in the next game and stayed for a while before leaving.
I felt extremely nervous, and I learned I sucked hard in a game I spent years practicing which makes me feel bad.