I have no close friends
This is my first time writing a post. I don’t really have anyone to tell this to because whenever i do they usually reply by saying that they don’t know what’s wrong. As the title states, I don’t have any close friends. I’m currently attending highschool as a junior (2nd year) and im somewhat known. Overall I’m on good terms with my classmates and other people i know or so I think at least, I always hoped that i would finally encounter some people that i would get along with and could call close friends but that never happened. My school is placed very close to many convenience stores so on our long breaks me and my “friends” go there to get something to eat. Lately it seems like nobody really cares wether I’m around or not. My classmates don’t even invite me to hangouts, they also speak about their plans they are going to have together in front of me, I never ask if I can go because I know I would be forcing myself in (even though if i asked they would probably say i could go).
Back in primaty school I had a group of friends where we would go out to hangout and stuff but after some time they kind of started making fun of me as a joke, at first it seemed funny but after a couple of times it became a nudge, after the last year in primary I cut them off because I thought that people like them are not worth knowing. Back in the beginning of the 2nd year of highschool I went to a therapist and she told me that the way I speak is very convincing and mature, I wasn’t putting up an act at the therapist to sound that way, that’s just the way I am. Of course I don’t speak that way with my friends. Many people also told me that I’m conventionally attractive, wouldn’t that make getting to know people easier? ( I don’t have a skyrocketed self esteem, neither do i have a huge ego). Is there something wrong with me? What could i do?