I’m a shiftlead in the food service industry. The manager quit last week and now they are so short staffed that I’m not sure what’s gonna happen. The store owner owns several other stores and works like 19 hour days. The manager and another shiftlead quit unexpectedly last week. One called out indefinitely and one walked out during a shift.
The store owner wanted to talk to me today, so I think he’s gonna call me back soon and I’m sure it’s that he wants me to work more hours cause I’m not working much this week and I’m sure he needs the help. But I think I maybe need to tell him I can’t and idk how to do that.
The place is such a hot mess, it’s so overwhelming that I feel I’m going to have a crisis or freak out and be unable to cope while I’m there. I don’t even work that many hours but the environment with no breaks and running out of everything is destroying me. I have intrusive thoughts about myself at work and about my own safety and I don’t feel like I can handle it, like I mean I feel anxious I’m gonna go insane or something.
I haven’t been able to go to therapy in a month. Yesterday I had the day off but I spent the entire day extremely stressed. I only got 4 hours of sleep last night.
Saturday, I couldn’t stop sobbing when I got in the car and I couldn’t sleep after work until 8am and I had dreams about work constantly.
I don’t know what to tell my boss when he calls in a bit, I just feel so overwhelmed, I make like 13 an hour plus tips, im not in it for the money, I just feel incredibly guilty about the situation the store owner is in. He’s been so nice to me and I feel so guilty especially since he works so much, but I can’t deal with it.