Am I the idiot
I’ve been with my wife for 10 years I’m 34 she is 29. I was on a medication that basically made me not in the mood and dulled our sex life for 5 years of it and didnt realize the damaged it was causing. I recently got a much lower dose the past year and we have sex only when she is trying to get pregnant. I have worked very hard by going to therpy to work on myself and our marriage. This is starting to take a toll on me as I feel in love with her and she doesn’t give a shit about haveing sex with me unless it’s ovulation time.As everyone knows love is the hardest thing to navigate in life especially when you have 10 years with someone you thought is your soul mate. I’ve tried talking to her after sex asking if their is something I can do differently to satisfy you? Ultimately she does not want me to satisfy her she would rather masterbate or go see her ex boyfriend which she lied to me about last year and said it was a friend. She stopped seeing him for 8 months and then I caught her again over at his house. Am I the idiot for staying with her and wanting a kid?