Sorry if this is the wrong thread. If u know a better one lmk.
Basically, whenever im at a mental low point and what happened is at the front of my mind, ive noticed i dont just have a higher sex drive, im almost hyper sexual. This makes me feel gross, it doesnt make sense. I feel bad for pulling my gf into thid, im sure it isnt fun having a constantly horny partner. It just makes me feel bad. Its like i crave someone mean and rough and rude, but i would never ask her to do that. It wouldnt be fair. What if, in some fucked up way, i use her to hurt myself? That wouldn’t be right. But it doesn’t stop that stupid voice inside wanting it.
I wonder what part of me craves to be hurt. Why? How do i let myself know im okay? Or possibly bring this up w me gf? Idk, im just ashamed of these feelings.