My parents pushed me to become a doctor. Unfortunately, I didn’t meet their expectation and failed to get into into medical school. I became depressed and suic***. I then worked for a year before pursuing nursing. Now, with two degrees worth of loans, I’m thinking about all that student loan I will have to pay back. Currently, I am only able to work as a healthcare aide. Making $16 an hour.
My mom has two jobs as a healthcare aide and janitor, my dad has never in his life worked a full-time job, and my brother, in his 30s, has taken 8 years to finish school (still in school for one degree), and also has never had a job in his life.
My mom’s emotional struggles also become my burden. She uses me like her emotional punching bag. Discussing my dad’s cheating issues, and the thousands worth of debt she has. She frequently borrows money from me for bills and groceries, leading to my credit card debt and loans. She says she’ll pay back with the house, but i know the house will be going to my brother, because to my mom apparently I’ll be “rich”. Bullshit.
When I become an RN next year, I’m expected to support the family, covering not only my bills but also likely my brother’s student loans. Why? Because I’m a “woman”. I don’t have any friends because all I’ve been doing is studying and working. My mother has also always been a helicopter parent preventing any social interaction. She never allowed me to be independent. I struggle to do adult things I know I’m supposed to know and do myself. I don’t have a car, I can’t afford one.
My parents have made me question having kids of my own. They say, “you have to have kids, because who will take care of you when you get old”. They only had me so they can use me. I absolutely despise my parents. I want to be free, but I’m in so much deep shit. It is unlikely I will even afford to leave.
I’m 26 and I never ever want to have kids. I don’t want someone to become a fuck up like me.
TLDR; helicopter parents financially screwed me over and I want to know how I can finally become independent.