I’ve never had a real friend, from childhood people have just been picking on me. I always thought karma would catch up but it didn’t, the people who hurt me got to live fulfilling lives and I never got mine started because of how much they made me hate myself. It doesn’t feel real, these people have kids now and they still treat me like shit calling me a really messed up name. I am a sick person. Sometimes none of this feels real, just feels like punishment for a past life.