I do the surface level things correct but that’s the bare minimum. Of course I do my best to be kind, supportive, loving, provide words of affirmation, reassuring, patient, etc. Those aren’t things that are really “relationship-esque” though and more just not being an a-hole.
I keep struggling with the deeper things though. This is my first relationship and I’m still trying to navigate things and aren’t doing great. My GF and I have been together for over a year and I struggle with confronting friends when they make jokes that upset her. I want so so badly to be able to do that but my timidness gets in the way along with fear of confrontation.
This happens every 4 months or so and I tell myself that I’ll do everything in my power to be better. She means the world to me but still I struggle with being better and the same issues keep rearising.
I know that in the movies this is where the BF breaks up saying “you deserve better”. But I know that I’m the person she wants and expects to be better so i’ve heard that breaking up on that basis is awful.
I truly don’t know what to do because I want so deseperately to be better but I don’t know how I keep messing up.
TL;DR! I continue to make the same mistakes in a relationship causing my GF to get upset (rightfully so) and don’t know how to change even though I want to so badly.