I don’t feel attracted to women anymore.
I’m 21M. Had a three year relationship . It ended two years back . Had lots of ups and downs ( emotionally) during the relationship ( due to the rel) and I was committed and serious about it. There were many instances where I could not let go off the relationship and one fine day I just realised I was done with it . I realised it won’t work out in the future as even though I’m into it completely the partner may or may not be so involved into this thing. So I let it go. It took me three years to realise this. She moved on quickly (as expected) and I had no hard feelings about it (unlike before where I would make a fuss abt it) . I would like to think of us as something, where we created a good bond shared good time , it was good but not everything was utopia. This relationship gave me some lessons, some core moments , some trauma (which took a lot of self evaluation to recover from).
However I wonder it’s been so much time being single , the urge to find someone again has been lost. Naturally just like anyone I do have physical urges like cuddling or just wanting someone to spend time with, when I actually think of it I don’t feel like wanting it. Am I trying to avoid the things that come with a person in rel? Or I genuinely feel like not associating myself with anyone ?