Firstly, I am turned on a lot, don’t know whether this is because of my age or something;
I will try to cover everything, so I started masturbating watching YouTube videos where boy get dressed up as girl( I have masturbated before that) but this was my first step into that. I used to like it and see it regularly. In no time within 2 years it escalated into me watching and listening crossdressing story and self pleasing myself. Then I came accross a category kink called ‘sissy hypno’ it basically did not much of an effect on me but completely opened a whole new pov of feeling and living life in the girl way.(I highly would NOT want that)
And no, I do not accept myself as a girl and still want to live as a boy only, so I do not want to do hrt and all. I still want to live just as a guy but in a normal way, and so I want to eradicate this habit…
Past few months and now I am trying to stop this habit but always while masturbatingi climax while imagining myself in the girl pov and after the doing I just hate it and I do not want it please help me I do not know what to do or how to stop my habit.