i hate it. i just want to see the good in people and get by… share laughs, man. i just want to have a good time. its just so disappointing when im meeting new people and they turn out to be absolute assholes. im talking totally condescending. i know its kind of a no brainer but it really does suck knowing thwt regardless of what you do, there are some people you just won’t be able to get along with. i think alot of these feelings come from not knowing how to properly stand up for myself. i wouldn’t necessarily call it fear, but when i get belittled by strangers, my just kinda goes blank, and then i feel like shit afterwards knowing i didnt set boundaries. but at the same time, i hate that i even have to be put in those kinds of positions. i hate hating people, man. it takes away so much energy when we could have been having a good time. plus, if i say something i’m immediately going to look like the bad guy in the group. welp, i guess i just need to grow a pair and speak up. it pains my heart, but not everyone is deserving of respect. maybe this hesitance will go away the more i do it. idk