I used to be the shy one, then the outgoing one, now I’m the quiet one again. How do you really have a conversation with people? It just feels like things don’t flow like they used to. Partly because I feel like I don’t have a life to talk to someone about or to relate to them with.
Maybe that’s what I’m missing. Get some hobbies, get a job, fix up my own life and get myself motivated and happy, then I would start being more outgoing and social because I feel like I have substance behind me and a reason for them to get to know me.
I’ve heard people say it’s not about making friends, but finding them. Although I want friends, I’ve been so lonely for so long friendswise (more than a year), I just kind of lost that motivation or spark to find friends. It’s like I’m living the same pointless day over and over again. That cycle came to an end on the last camping trip we went on and I felt like a fresh, new person for a while. But as soon as I got back home, my life fell right back into the previous mold I broke out of for that short time.