When I was a kid in school from elementary school until middle school and high school, I had always acted as a people pleaser. Whenever someone asked me to go to calling their friends’ father name or touched them, I will rejected me. But then they will threatened me with violence so I have no choice but to do it. At that time, I just wanna avoid confrontation and want to spend some alone time. Thus, I comply with their demands and in the end, I’m the one who is still affected. Another thing that happened are my peers will always borrow money from me. I rejected them at first but then they keep asking me so I have no choice but to do it so they will not annoy me. And also whenever there is a conflict, I will always walk out or just apologize. If both of it didn’t work, I just sucked it up. At that time, I couldn’t do much to fight back because my school always have this rule of in order for a bullied student to truly able to report the bully, they can’t fight back at all. Otherwise, the bullied student will also get punished just like the bully. My parents also not fond of me causing disciplinary trouble in school so I endured it until I finished school. After finished school, I think back through it and felt that I was such a loser and couldn’t even defend myself. At first, I choose to be people pleaser so that I would make more friends but now I still barely have any new friends. When I was always staying at home during covid, I reflected on this issue and I kinda realize that people pleaser goes nowhere and people won’t even respect me a bit. So right now, I’m trying to be more direct, and more bold but sometimes my people pleasing tendency still kicks in sometimes when there is an extreme conflict happened around me. I will conclude this by saying for those introverts and social awkward people, don’t try to be extremely passive and please everybody, in the end, you will lose your own value as a person and never gain any respect from anybody