So, obviously I have googled this and can’t find anything about this. The opposite infact. I have an incredibly high sex drive, usually I can reach O 15ish times a day, some back to back. In a couple of minutes I feel back to 100% ready to go again. My sex life is somewhat of an issue, I have a partner who can please me (way better than what I can do for myself) but due to my body and mind issues I don’t have him get me off very often. That’s all that I think is relevant to my main point of this post. Lately, when I have been trying to get myself off, I’ll be in the mood so I stop what I’m doing, start working on myself and instantly as soon as I focus I feel like I shut off. I stop and continue whatever I was initially doing and instantly feel the physical urge again. It’s almost painful to me. So I start again, and it has gotten so bad to the point of tears falling down my face just because the act makes me so depressed. I have no idea why. I have to completely distract my mind on something else for my to physically finish. This is embarrassing but I will literally just watch my tiktoks like normal in order to finish. Let me be clear that I am not getting off to TikTok, it’s just whatever random contact that’s on, I cannot think about anything sexual or I completely loose my physical process and have to start over. I don’t like porn, I just don’t like it. Hentai, manga, pornhub, nothing. It’s all gross to me, too over exaggerated and none of it is real. I don’t know what changed. The last month has been so difficult for me and I need some physical relief so bad but I don’t know what to do. If someone can even tell me what this is called so that I can research it I’d be grateful.