How much did i fuck this up ?
Basically I 26M, met a girl 23F (A) a few years back, since we were training for the same sport during university. The friendship started organically, we studied together, grabbed food together and basically started getting closer to each other. Then covid hit, there were social gatherings restrictions, however as soon as things opened back she was eager to go out again. I dated one of here friends briefly during early ‘21 and had to end things due to bad mental health, (A) was very supportive and stayed by my side, however during the summer I was isolating myself more and honestly rarely felt like doing anything. Then starts my last semester of school. I still saw (A) every now and then we would chat for a bit, i wasn’t feeling my best so I didn’t have energy to engage in any social activities. As it turns out I had a tumour during that time, i got diagnosed with cancer and started a 2 year+ treatment plan right away, only 2 months into my last semester.
The news were shocking to mee, I couldn’t share to anyone except my immediate family and 3 friends that asked how my health was since they knew i was struggling for a bit.
I tried reconnecting with (A) cuz i felt i needed to let her know, i wanted it to be in person, however she was out of town and busy so i didn’t other sending a text.
Fast forward a few months, I’m at the peak of my chemotherapy treatment, my cognitive energy was very bad at the time, it was her birthday so i send her a happy birthday text to which she replies and i forgot to reply back.
I remember a few days later but i find out that i cannot reply since i got removed from her SC. She posted a story about something related to her career on IG a few weeks later, i comment on it, then i got ghosted and removed ed from IG as well.
That hurt me at the time. But the real moment i felt hurt is when i saw her a few days ago at a reunion and i got get rid of the thought of her removing me from her life when i was having some of the hardest days i had to endure.
When I saw her again i wasn’t sure if she was just polite and friendly or genuinely interested to know where i have been. I bring up the fact that i was battling cancer and she just brushes it off, like i said nothing.
It fucked up with my brain, after the event was done i asked her on the side why did she remove me, she said she just cleans up socials and didn’t mean it probably. I was only able to say that i thought we ere friends to which she didn’t respond. I ended that interaction right away.
I know that i have done something wrong, can’t put my fingers on it yet. But was her response once and behaviour justified ?
This has been taking too much of my thinking and i want to move one, but i need someone input to get a different perspective ctive on the situation