So a little back story about me and my relationships to work. I am a bit of a joker but also take what other people say as very serious more than the average person. Words and gestures speak a lot to me and sometimes I project that back to people by trying to ‘help’ them or by trying to be warm and personal – to be a human towards them. But I know that this can be achieved without actually giving any of my personal information or details to work colleagues, or delving deep into their own world/ego. What I want to prevent going into this next job is my stupid ability of leaving personal imprints on other peoples psyche, in regards to what I do/who I am.I like to treat everyday like its a brand new day and also a brand new me. But sometimes that comes with oversharing, not to anyone elses detriment but to my own – this is why I say I play the joker at times.
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But in a situation where I am going to be working directly next to people of all different ages and cultures in a very fast-paced environment (hospital), I know I will have trouble forming professional connections because I prefer the fun of a relationship over the seriousness. I prefer people to know that they are always free to express themselves however they want, with me leading by example. My question mostly is how do I still allow myself to play the joker but in a way that doesn’t leave an imprint and doesn’t cause deep connections between the people I am surrounded with, because these people and their ideas of me will matter, I want to recreate the balance between being warm and personal and being cold and impersonal.
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I am a Leo as well so it can be hard for people to ignore me, even when I am in a more ‘closed off’ position. I’m either too loud or too intolerant – TOO MUCH ENERGY directed towards the wrong goal or no goal in most matters
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