title grammar, i need help
TLDR i dont know how to socialize, have a reputation of being quiet approaching people is hard, i stumble words and can’t hold a conversation, don’t think anyone wants to talk to me
I have been dealing with social anxiety almost my whole life, i was isolated inside for a whole year during covid and i only talked to a few people granted they were online friends ive made and its just easier to talk over the internet. i came to my first year in hs not knowing a single person ive made some friends but i would like to make more in my 2nd semester of 2nd year.
first, i believe i have the reputation of being quiet and weird. i dont feel like i have had the opportunities to socialize but i feel like it’s also my fault for not seeing these so approaching is a very big problem for me.
second, i stumble over my words no matter what making it really awkward or weird and i honestly just dont know how to hold a conversation. i have looked at threads on this subreddit but as i said before i dont find the opportunities to start talking to someone new.
thirdly, i dont feel like anyone is really interested in talking to me no matter how i try. i dont wanna be rude and bump into conversations at work or my friends talking with their friends.
i really want to improve on these problems so i can build relationships with my peers and not come off as weird.