I have a friend I’ve talked to for awhile, but I’m just kinda getting tired of talking to him, my social anxiety is really getting to me and I don’t want him to hear my voice, but I know he expects me to talk, and even if I decide to stay silent, that stresses me out too because I know he wants me to talk. On our calls, he mostly just shows me videos or music he likes, and I know he wants me to react to it but I just can’t ever react to anything properly, my voice is monotone and inexpressive even if I try, and I usually just say like “nice” or “cool” which isn’t well received responses. But I just don’t want to say more than that, I don’t want to talk to him rn but I can’t tell him that because I know he’ll just say “well we’ve been friends for awhile, no need to be anxious I won’t judge” but it’s like, you want me to react, and that makes me anxious, and when I don’t react you question it. Please give me advice, I want to like spending time with him again instead of dreading all the self hatred I will feel afterwards