I’m so embarrassed by all this. I apologize if I’m rambling. Just trying to get my thoughts in order as I’ve been very stressed about this situation recently.
5 years ago I ran into money issues and struggled to get a job that would pay the bills. I knew about online sites where I could sell “subscriptions” and decided to try it out. Turns out I pretty good at it and made 6-figures for about 3 years. During that time I went back to college and started a career in nursing. As soon as I got a nursing job I quit my online stuff. I had really grown to hate it over time.(No judgement, just my personal experience.)
About a year after I left I met a wonderful man(“Jake”) and he proposed over Christmas. He is the most amazing man I’ve ever met and I love him so much. I never told Jake about my online activities as he is a pretty conservative person when it comes to sexual things. I got scared about telling him while we were dating, but now that we are engaged I have to tell him.
Reddit, I’m terrified. I can’t sleep. I’m struggling to eat. Even though I’ve done nothing wrong(except not telling him right away), I feel like I’m telling him I cheated.
How do I bring this up to him without losing him forever?