If you could, please be kind when replying, small things kinda make me spiral
So I (20M) really love horses and I like to go and volunteer over the weekend at a rescue stable. Im also at an outpatient right now and some of the people there while not willing to muck a stall, also like horses. So when the ranch had a mulching day followed by a tour I decided to finally open up instead of spending my weekend just counting down the clock until I had to go back to the outpatient like I usually do
I invited some people and they seemed really excited. I made sure to send a bunch of reminders so people wouldnt forget. Nobody ended up showing up despite seeming interested which is fine im used to that. But what hurt me is nobody texted me or sent me any messages saying they wouldnt show. I spent the whole time there half enjoying myself, I mean its hard to be sad around horses but also kinda Devastated, hoping maybe they’re just two hours late or just wanted to meet the horses and not shovel a buncha mulch around. A similar thing happened when one of my friends ditched my 18th birthday. Ive also been told by somebody on Reddit that I seem really entitled which I didn’t think I am cuz I constantly put other peoples needs above my own so that came as a blow.
Basically does anybody have any advice on how to stop expecting people to make me a priority in their life? Because I know thats never really gonna happen and i dont want to be that person that thinks the world revolves around them