So I haven’t been out of my house since may of 2023 because no car / no job / school. Almost a whole year later I can finally get a job and go to college..Uhh my life history is long but to keep it short I was bullied all my life and now that I’m out of high school since I graduated which it’s almost been a year.. I don’t know how to talk to people. I’m so painfully awkward and can’t hold eye contact. Plus I come off as rude apparently because I’m quiet and don’t like speaking to people because I assume they’re going to bully me. It’s hard for me to even greet someone which I feel so bad 😭 I also speak before I think so often I come off rude on accident because I don’t know how to read a room. I’m genuinely so bad at holding a conversation past hi how are you? I’m good thank you.. I notice people share their entire life stories very quickly even as strangers. I also don’t have friends and have never dated so idk how will that go either. Also for some reason I really don’t mean to but I stare a lot at glance back and forth at people because I’m curious of how their face looks but again it comes off as rude.. idk overall I’m horrible at even saying hi