Fiction made everyone think that it’s hot. A while ago I saw so many videos on tiktok being like “This is how I want our arguments to end” and the audio was a woman whimpering. This is so toxic. I never thought I will experience it until I did.
I had an argument with my boyfriend because he has been rude towards everyone. We never argued. Mind you this is two years and four months relationship. It ended with angry sex. He was too rough. I usually love it. We mostly have gentle sex but sometimes we are having rough sex. Even when he was rough he was reassuring me during it and mostly after it. Aftercare is usually a must for him. This was different. He was too rough. Mentally I knew I had to stop him because this isn’t unhealthy but my body was betraying me. Even though this was the worst sex of my life I still had an orgasm. He pulled out cleaned himself up and went to the balcony to take a puff. When he came back I told him I was sore and he told me to clean myself up and to stop being so childish because we often had sex and I should be used to this. He got dressed and left.
But yeah angry sex is so hot. It’s hot unless you’re left alone after it like nothing has happened. But yeah it’s so hot to feel used.
Anyways I don’t know if I will ever want to have sex again. How do I stop feeling so used and dirty? My boyfriend is going through something and he isn’t telling me which is unusual. He is taking it out on everyone. I didn’t expect him to do this to me though. I should have used the safe word instead of being horny.