Throughout my school life I was a people-pleaser (I still am) and did not really have any friends (Still do). It felt like everybody was my friend and still nobody was. I never had the opportunity to hang out with them nor was I social in school. The talks I usually had was either to make jokes by teasing some other guy or some pirated online jokes and did not develop any humor.
Thanks to COVID-19 I spent another 2 years in isolation with no real social conversations except my mom. Right now I am in college in a state where I don’t know the language that almost everybody uses. Given my non-existent social skills and no real humor sense I find it hard to make friends or even hold up a conversation more than 2 sentences.
It is hard to speak to anyone let alone stay in a relationship given that people feel bored with me.
Another thing I had noticed was that people around me are able to express their feelings and their thoughts without any issue. But I don’t feel anything of that sort. It is not that I hide my thought or feelings but it is just that I don’t feel anything. It is just numb. When people are engaged in a convo or any social activity I am just physically present.
Is there nothing I can do to improve my social skills given that I am no introvert but am a people pleaser and most of the times I am numb and am just physically present and nothing more. Also I am desperate to increase my humor