Created a new account because I don’t want my girlfriend to know about this – it’d just make her feel bad.
I’m (20sM) just so tired of holding back. If I didn’t, I’d cum within two minutes – and the one time I did do this, my gf blurted out “already?” which of course made me feel great /s
She wants me to moan but I can’t moan, because if I did allow myself to properly enjoy the sensations, I’d cum a lot quicker than I do now. Notwithstanding that I do most of the work and frankly can’t expend the extra energy into moaning.
I have to really focus on something else, like the wall, or football, or politics, in order to last long enough to satisfy her. Basically I have to disassociate myself. I really want to experience sex like she does – just get lost in it, enjoy the pleasure and the sensations. But I simply can’t, and I don’t know what to do because I’m close to breaking point. My libido has gone way down and of course my gf has noticed, and I’ve just been using work as an excuse (and it has contributed a little bit, tbf). What on earth can I say to her? How can I actually enjoy sex like she does and just lose myself in the experience without worrying about being a disappointment?