I am 20 yo. Male.
I have social difficulties and i have had it since i was a child, i know that i have Low self esteem and i know that it’s been in my life all my life.
I have tried, and tried and tried to overcome it. I have a psychologist, I get medicine for the tism and ADD, I even subscribed to stoicism which is a life philosophy that can help you understand yourself and develop.
People say that stuff like this comes slow, but I can’t greet a stranger without pulling my head downwards, and making a very pathetic attempt to please them. Omg it’s so so so pathetic and painful, and I feel shame for being so awkward. But it’s stuck to me like a fly trap, is stuck to a fly. It’s very uncomfortable and I know that my low self esteem has given me so many problems and made my life way harder than it has to be. I tried self care and meditation, yes I am confident, but my self esteem cannot improve. I even write gratitude list daily and analyse myself, I take anxiety medicine m. Again I feel miserable daily, I feel broken.
What should be my first steps towards a better self esteem?