I (15M) want to start talking to my (14F) childhood friend again.
We haven’t talked since I think 2018 when I was 9 when she left my school, I like an idiot hadn’t asked for contact information so we never talked or saw eachother since then.
I had always wanted to somehow contact her but I’m pretty sure her parents didn’t allow her to use social media that young so there was no way to do that.
Recently though I discovered that she has an account on TikTok which I can message her through.
I’m really scared to message her though, because some of my (hopefully false) memories I have of her were acting like a bit of an asshole to her, I have obviously changed a lot since then and I’m no longer an asshole, so I’m scared to message her cause what if she has negative memories of me?
There are obviously lots of good memories aswell, since we were really good friends at the time.
There are some factors that might make this difficult, like the fact that I have pretty bad social anxiety and ADHD aswell (though judging off her TikTok reposts and some of my own memories she might also not be doing too well mentally and might also be neurodivergent)
She has been a recurring thought to me throughout the past 6 years, my friends sometimes even remind me of those days because we were very good friends and people shipped us (lol), I most of the time lied saying “yeah lol, those were some cringe times” but in reality I miss those days, she was such a sweet person and I really regret not getting her contact info and acting like a piece of shit
I’m also really terrified that she has COMPLETELY forgotten me, that I’m not an even slightly recurring memory/thought to her.
I really want help on this, this is the first chance I’ve had to directly contact her since 2018.
(DISCLAIMER TO MODS: THIS IS NOT A ROMANCE POST!!! THIS IS PURELY PLATONIC, A GUY AND A GIRL CAN BE FRIENDS!!!)