I’m so scared to be myself. I’m so scared to make friends. I’ve closed my heart so much from my past that I can’t ever make friends, build a relationship, nothing. It’s hard being alone, but I’m so aware that it is my fault at the same time. When i have an opportunity to be myself and talk I become so scared and i freeze. Even when people talk to me i will just not respond and continue doing what i’m doing because i freeze and know that im expected to respond. Any advice or personal triumphs of the same problems will be helpful. I have nobody that i can talk to personally about this. I’m so tired of my way of being