I’ll try not to make this post too long. I’ll be with my boyfriend tonight and tomorrow, and I’m sure he’ll get touchy-feely at some point, but lately I haven’t felt the motivation to do anything. I have been heavily depressed lately, for context.
In the past month or so I haven’t felt super great about our sex life and its making me question a lot of things, but I do love him with every fiber in my being.
Penetration always hurts and we always have to wait a while until we can actually get into it, I never orgasm and he only cums in missionary. We usually start by me on top so I can try and slide it in with no pain (never happens though, we have to wait) and once I’m comfortable we’ll switch to missionary so he can finish. Then afterwards I feel okay until I have to pee six times in an hour, everything is achy and sore and tender.
I never feel like I’m doing good enough, we can’t do doggy or anything with my legs on his shoulders (which he likes) because it hurts me too much. My mouth is too small for oral, and even then I’m just not really sure what to do, I don’t feel an arousing urge to suck him off. I just want to feel like a real woman and my sex issues aren’t helping. Thanks for reading <3