I am the only girl of my parents and the only sister of my three brothers. So you might be guessing how much loved I am from my family. I never felt any lacking in there with anything.
Then I got into relationships with my husband and it stayed for long eight years and long distance for our studies and works. We didn’t have everything smooth but we were happy with each other. My boyfriend wasn’t a kind of person who shows so much romance or hearts and flowers. I always used to complain about these. I don’t know i always have been a girl looking for love and affection. I used to feel I wasn’t special for him. I used to cry i used to ask him for all these but I didn’t want to leave him because everyone has his own way of feeling loved or showing so. To talk about him, he never left his responsibilities towards me, he always listened to me, cared for me and my requests.
I managed my mind and I married him. I thought he would feel differently after marriage. He would want to make me feel special. But alas, it’s the same even after our marriage. He does everything, like whatever i ask him to buy or get, he does. He doesn’t torture me for anything or he doesn’t just leave me alone at any situation but he doesn’t do anything special. It’s just 5months we got married, he never got a flower for me, never planned a beautiful dinner for me, never buy any small gifts for me, never surprised me. Even he doesn’t want to upload anything about us on social media. I know these things are not everything to live with someone, but i am thirsty for all these. I told him that I expect these things, he listened but never worked on it. I feel so left out. The fact that im living so far away from my family, doing all my responsibilities..but for whom? Do i not deserve to have a little excitement or surprise any time from the person i want to spend life with? What should i do? How can i calm myself?