Hi, so I’ve (F21) met my partner’s family for more than a year and still don’t feel comfortable around them. For context, my man is Filo (if you know you know). His family is beyond huge! Especially compared to my small family. Also, I never grew up going to family or friends parties (and still don’t). Basically, not used to being in big social settings. I find it really hard to be independent in those situations and take control of it. I need my boyfriend to always be there with me or someone to start a conversation with me. I want them to view me as a good fit for my boyfriend, but I’m afraid I just look awkward or just average due to my lacking confidence. I think they all like me in that they don’t have a problem with me and that I seem nice, but nothing beyond that. Also, I don’t know if it’s the fact that we’re different religions and backgrounds that I find it extra difficult. It makes me wonder if this is a clash of culture or just me?? Of course, there’s issues in them speaking a different language around me or me not understand cultural references, etc. Some have married outside the culture but the few who aren’t Filo are white (I’m the only brown one). Also, I feel like my man thinks I’m just being silly with the whole situation, especially because he’s keen to meet my side for a big occasion. Like him telling me to walk to the house by myself and enter made me so nervous. Especially because as I got inside I had no idea where he was and could just hear the chatter of guests. Or if he leaves me he expects for me to make conversation with someone but I don’t know how! Every time he invites me to his families events I just don’t feel excited at all. Is it bad I want him to experience what I do so he can have a bit more empathy? Any tips on how I can feel more excited and extroverted?