Why do I put all my eggs in one basket?
There was someone that I had strong feelings for, but he did not have strong feelings for me. I played it off and gave him his space, he wanted to be friends with benefits, which is fine, but I thought in my delusional brain that there could be something more in the future.
He was supposed to come next weekend to visit me (we live three hours apart). I had a funny suspicion that he met someone and I had texted him if he was still coming Friday. He said “honestly I’m met someone and I want to be with her, eating you was really fun blah blah blah.”
I told him that I met someone too, so it was no worries (there is nobody in my life)
It breaks my heart, because no matter what I can never find someone decent enough to share the same feelings as me.
I ended up blocking the guy because that’s how I move on. but I just want to know why I do this to myself, it’s been like this ever since I was very little.